Christmas carol

Back to Sarawak. All the familiarities are quite overwhelming. We went for Christmas Carol. It has been a while. I thought of last year, midnight after having party, I walked alone in Flinder street to join the St. joseph carol. I was long for something. I was also ran away from something.

Till now. I knew I had found the answer but still there was some empty feelings. Perhaps I was looking for The sense of belonging? To totally belong someone…

Yes, my value always depend on someone else…i am so used To be loved by some guys, and it is so hard to believe Jesus’ love is sufficient for me. I pray Lord, in this Christmas eve, make my heart prepared for u:)

It is really great to away from all the chaotically event but to dig deep on my fears and hatred.