超越凡俗的歡樂情感,而追求意識和真理,可能嗎?

It is unreal. Had too much memories all tangled together. Or too much grammatical mistakes in conversation. I know who I am not, or who I want to be…more tolerate to myself and others. More attachment, more beautiful moment and unexplainable sadness.lots of free association. And playing words or ideas. Too many unexplored places of Singapore. What can I say? LOrd, thank you !

Back to Sarawak. All the familiarities are quite overwhelming. We went for Christmas Carol. It has been a while. I thought of last year, midnight after having party, I walked alone in Flinder street to join the St. joseph carol. I was long for something. I was also ran away from something.

Till now. I knew I had found the answer but still there was some empty feelings. Perhaps I was looking for The sense of belonging? To totally belong someone…

Yes, my value always depend on someone else…i am so used To be loved by some guys, and it is so hard to believe Jesus’ love is sufficient for me. I pray Lord, in this Christmas eve, make my heart prepared for u:)

It is really great to away from all the chaotically event but to dig deep on my fears and hatred.